For the past few weeks, I have not been able to get this thought out of my head...
As I spend time with my heavenly father each day, I cannot help but think about my own dad, and the fact that my beloved husband is about to become a daddy as well. I tell Chloe everyday how blessed she is, to not only have a heavenly father who loves her more than she will ever understand, but also an earthly father who cannot wait to hold her and love on her. I get so excited for this precious relationship that Chloe and Brady will get to experience. There is such a special bond between a father and daughter...one that I believe is so important and cannot wait for Brady to experience. I tell Brady all the time that he will have such an important impact on how Chloe views herself, and her confidence in who she is as a young girl, teenager, and woman.
I am so blessed to have a father who has always made me feel like a princess. Not in a snooty, bratty, or cheesy way, but in a way that I knew I was special, beautiful, and precious in my father's sight. I never had to turn to guys to get the male attention that we as girls, teenagers, and young women so desperately desire. My daddy was always there for me, and for this I am forever grateful (as is Brady). I truly believe that one of the reasons it has been so easy for me to see God as a loving father, who desires nothing but the best for me, is because my dad has been nothing but a loving and supportive father to me for my entire life.
I have never questioned God or wondered why certain things happen...I have always had this confidence and trust in Him, believing with all my heart that He walks with me through all of life's trials. There is so much comfort in knowing that my God, my Father, is with me and will never forsake me. Through this journey, during the past 6 months, I can say that I have clung to God's word, especially when He tells me not to fear.
So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand. --Isaiah 41:10
I have told Brady that I feel as thought the Lord has always "kept me." I have never questioned His existence or His love for me...this is a prayer that I pray for Chloe. I pray that she will feel as though she always has a special bond and love, not only for her daddy, but for her heavenly father as well.
I know that Brady will be an amazing father, as he has been the most amazing husband to me. I hate that I am currently in a position where he has to take care of everything...and I just sit. He has been such a picture of what Christ has called him to be.
Husbands, love your wives, just as Christ loved the church and gave himself up for her, to make her holy... --Ephesians 5:25
Since we received the news about the cancer, Brady has done nothing but make sacrifices for me and our precious baby. I pray daily that he will allow the Lord to be his strength because I know without the Lord, it would be an even harder task, and one that would probably make him bitter.
I will end this with a sweet story that made my heart leap, as I saw this special bond already developing. Last Saturday night, Brady was in Houston for his high school reunion. As we were telling each other goodnight (on the phone), I asked him to say "goodnight" to Chloe. I put the phone down on my belly for Brady to talk to his baby girl. After a few seconds, she started to kick at the phone. I thought it was the neatest thing; she heard her daddy's voice and was responding to it. I could not wait to share this with Brady, but I let him talk a little more as she continued to kick at his voice. I cannot wait to see my precious husband holding our baby girl...the thought of it brings tears to my eyes.